No sport tests endurance like baseball. There are 162 games in a season, not counting the postseason. Each game consists of nine innings, with a possibility for unlimited extra innings. Even marathons have finishing lines; not so baseball.
Baseball
can be as much a mental drag as a physical one, especially when you have
a divorce and drug accusations hanging over your head. Such was the case for
Keith Hernandez in 1985, the season chronicled in this memoir.
The guy could flat-out hit, and fielded so well he won more Golden Gloves (11) than any other first-baseman. In 1985, he even set a record for most game-winning runs batted in, a briefly-employed statistic designed to measure that elusive baseball skill known as clutch hitting.
Hernandez saw himself as a clutch hitter, yet with reservations. “I do love these clutch situations – but I love them more when I’m swinging the bat well,” he writes after one game when he didn’t.
Doubt
can’t help but creep into your life when you struggle at the plate. During a
long slump, Hernandez ponders his situation:
Look
at it: I’m a career .300 hitter. There are only a dozen of us active in the
major leagues today. Yet I’m capable of wondering if I’ll hit again. I can even
wonder how good I was in the first place. I can twist myself into a Gordian
knot of doubts.
A
decade later, Hernandez would be able to make himself feel better in an episode
of “Seinfeld” by reminding himself: “I’m Keith Hernandez.” In 1985, he wasn’t
so cocky. Cool, yes, and snarky, too; this Keith Hernandez isn’t too far
removed from the retired legend who has made a second career as an opinionated celebrity
commentator.
But he was still proving himself, even after winning a World Series ring in 1982. Perhaps that’s why the title implies a kind of failure.
But he was still proving himself, even after winning a World Series ring in 1982. Perhaps that’s why the title implies a kind of failure.
For
1985 would not be the greatest season for either Hernandez or the New York Mets he played for that season. Both
did well; Hernandez winning National League Player of the Month honors for his
second time ever in July and the Mets winning 98 games, fourth-most in team
history. But there was no postseason for them; in the 1980s only division
champs advanced to the playoffs. In 1985 the St. Louis Cardinals, the team
which traded Hernandez away in 1983, managed to do better without him than the
Mets did with him.
Co-written
with Mike Bryan, who also shared authorship of Hernandez’s later tome Pure Baseball: Pitch By Pitch For The Advanced Fan, If At First… is much
different in focus and content, more driven by Hernandez’s cagey, bemused
personality. Organized as a series of short reflections on each game played
that season, If At First… affords a peek into a player’s diary, one given
to chattering about himself as much as the game he plays.
He’s
not an especially effusive or even likable character, but he’s candid and
refuses to tow whatever line is expected of him. That makes Hernandez
interesting. Take his former use of cocaine, which caught up to him in 1985 in
the form of public testimony after his name came up in a Major League Baseball
investigation:
I’ve
used cocaine. I don’t anymore. That period of my life didn’t damage my career
in baseball, but I made my own bed during those years – 1980, ’81, and ’82 –
and this year, I’ll have to sleep in it with the whole world watching.
Or
the fans at a game in Houston:
I’m
not out for cheap shots, but the [Astro]Dome fans are weak. Hell, even the
cabbie who brought me to the stadium said the best night for him is a 4-0 game
(either way) in the fifth inning. He’ll get his first customer that early, and
a steady stream will follow for the rest of the night.
He
sums up his attitude about autograph seekers thusly: “I won’t sign baseball
cards for forty-year-old guys. Grow up, fellas.”
Ouch.
What If At First… lacks in depth it makes up for in bite.
It also offers splendid analysis about the game and the way it is played:
In
a slump, we feel we have to swing at the pitch if it’s a strike, to avoid
getting behind in the count. Because we’re not sure we’ll hit any pitch at all,
we have to swing at more of them, helping our odds. But of course this really hurts
our odds, because we’re swinging at worse pitches. It’s a cruel dilemma.
In
terms of candor, If At First… is not about burning bridges. This isn’t
Jim Bouton’s Ball Four, naming names about all the womanizing and
boozing behind the scenes. The only person he singles out in either category is
himself.
But
Hernandez does dish in other ways. He calls attention to the mistakes as well
as the accomplishments of his Mets teammates. Outfielder Darryl Strawberry may
be a great hitter and underappreciated fielder in Hernandez’s telling here, but
he is betrayed at times by a soft attitude. Catcher Gary Carter is a heroic
figure carrying the team for much of the season on a bad knee, but a cringey
showboater, too.
He
also questions some of his manager Davey Johnson’s decisions, though not always
justly:
The
announced reason for removing Dwight [Gooden] is that he had thrown over 140
pitches, while striking out eleven Expos. I understand, but couldn’t he throw
ten or fifteen more? This game is important.
Send
out your team’s ace to throw 155 pitches today, and you rightly get fired. Even
back then, Hernandez was what they call “old-school.”
A couple of Hernandez defensive gems from his Mets days. GIF from https://tenor.com/search/keith-hernandez-gifs. |
Hernandez
saves most of his sharpest digs for himself. He spends more ink itemizing bad
plate appearances than anything else, and calls attention to games where he
didn’t perform up to his expectations. Often he offers up an excuse, then
dismisses it.
At
one point he writes about making a drunk spectacle of himself at a restaurant.
“What the hell is wrong with me?” he asks.
What
drove Hernandez? Hernandez credits his father for not just pushing him to
succeed in the majors but helping him stay there. In 1985, he gave his son
pointers on his batting stance that helped Keith break out of his worst-ever
slump. But Pop Hernandez seems a hard man to please, at least as Keith tells it,
fault-finding to a fault.
While
basically a game-by-game journal, Hernandez and Bryan are less chroniclers than
commentators. Hernandez makes some general observations about specific game
situations, and keeps it light throughout. Often he plugs his buddies on the
team: pinch-hitter Rusty Staub, veteran pitcher Ed Lynch, and young pitching
star Ron Darling, though Darling, his future broadcast partner for a decade of
Mets games and counting, comes off as a riddle:
Most
of the guys don’t pick up the beat of his drummer. He went to Yale and can
prove it in his conversation. He wears the ultra-latest clothes… He’s sort of a
loner. He’s my good friend.
One
thing that makes If At First… a fine read for me is that it is set in
1985, rather than the following season, 1986, when Hernandez and the Mets won
the World Series.
Nineteen
hundred and eighty-six was boring in retrospect until you got to the
postseason, a sad fact proved in a supplementary chapter included in later
editions of If At First… offering “the exclusive inside story” of the
1986 season.
As
a Mets fan, it’s hard to claim that a World Championship actually detracts from
a book’s merit, but it does here. Hernandez immersed me so much in the
experience of a team on the verge in 1985 that a briefer summation of the same
team’s triumph in 1986 is anticlimactic.
I preferred the 1985 edition of the Mets anyway. In 1985, the Mets had to
struggle, and ultimately lost; despite the pitching greatness of Gooden, who
went 24-4 and led the majors in strikeouts and earned-run average. The pesky
Cardinals, managed by the same guy who traded Hernandez, Whitey Herzog, proved
too much:
The
Cards have showed a lot more come-from-behind capability this year than we
have. The Mets have to rely on long extra-base hits, which are harder to come
by than singles, harder yet in the clutch. We’re more of a get-ahead,
stay-ahead team.
But
1985 had highlights as well. Hernandez tells about the night in Atlanta where
he hit for the cycle while playing in a game that lasted 19 innings and ended
at four in the morning, capped by a fireworks show (it was played on the Fourth
of July). Late in the game, Hernandez
snuck into the clubhouse to call his girlfriend: “If I’m playing baseball at
this hour, at least you can be awake,” he told her.
Hernandez
kept me awake throughout his book; perhaps because I remember the team he
played for. Still, If At First… is entertaining and insightful enough to
be worth anyone’s time. Baseball is fun.
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